I only have 6 more weeks of class left as of tomorrow! I was looking at my schedule for the next six weeks and I have SO much going on I don't know how I'll get it all done. I have yet another American Heritage midterm in two weeks and I have to take my second Book of Mormon test tonight. These next six weeks are going to be so busy and I have so much to do and the worst part is that I am completely lacking motivation. I didn't have too much homework over the weekend which was really nice, but at the same time I spent a big chunk of my day avoiding the homework I did have (which included studying for the Book of Mormon test . . . ). I get into this rut every year around this time when I have zero motivation and not only do I not have motivation, but I have total apathy as well. I don't do my work (or I don't do it well) and I don't even care--that's the worst part. I feel like I'm coming out of this funk a little bit, but I'm still a bit personality-less and apathetic. This funk is definitely not helped out by the fact that I've been a bit homesick the past couple of days. Last semester the homesick factor really wasn't a problem because I went home for Sarah's baptism and there was the week I went home for Thanksgiving. This semester I'm not going home at all, which is fine most of the time, but these past couple of days I've been pretty down. I did get to talk to my family last night though (for the first time in about 2 weeks because of the school musical that consumed everyone) and that did a lot to lessen the stress of missing people.
When I was talking to my dad, he posited the plan that he drive over at the end of April to help me move out and then he could drive me back! I love it and I really hope that can happen! It's weird to me that none of my immediate has seen my room or met my friends, so that would be way cool if Dad could come out to pick me up. Most of the time he'd actually be here, I'd be taking finals, packing, or moving, but he has family out here he hasn't seen in a while, so he'd have fun while I get myself ready to come home for the summer.
I woke up this morning feeling a bit more motivated, overwhelmed, but at least some of my motivation is returning. I'm in the home stretch for the semester and I just have to keep telling myself I can do it!