8.05.2011

finding a fit

Let's get a few things straight: I may not have enjoyed very much what I do at my job; however, I have very much enjoyed having a job. Jobs are hard to come by right now, and I have been grateful every day for the job that I have. And even though my duties haven't been anything glamorous, doing my job well is very important to me.

So you can imagine the conflicted feelings I had when my supervisor informed me that the company is ending my contract in lieu of hiring a gallery director (for our lower floor) who will absorb my responsibilities. This was unexpected and carries a few contrasting emotions. Since I started this job, the end seemed indefinite, and so I tried to adjust accordingly. Now all of a sudden, I have one week left with nothing lined up to follow.

In many ways, this change is a relief. Perhaps now I can devote more time and energy toward looking for a job that better fits my skill set and that's closer to home.

When I think about this new unknown in our life, part of me fills with anxiety. I hate job searching, because it's so full of rejection and dead-ends. Also, we've really come to enjoy the reassurance that comes with that extra cushion of income each week. The other part of me, though, fills with the anticipation that so often accompanies opportunity.


I feel . . . released. I feel like I have the opportunity to find a job that fits, maybe in not every way, but in at least some ways.

Yes, I will not miss this particular job, but I will miss having a job. So here's to opportunity, finding a fit, and maybe sneaking to the pool for some reading in the interim.

9 comments:

A Mitton said...

Man. Even if I didn't love a job, I'd feel slightly off-put at such short notice to find a new one. But good positive working attitude. (Do you ever watch Psych? Even if you do you might not have picked that up, it was quite obscure, but did make me laugh at my desk. Oh dear.)


Okay, back on track, I'll let you know if I think of/come across anything in the area that you might be interested in. My dad might know of something useful, or somewhere to start searching. Good luck! I'm excited to see where you end up.

m.estelle said...

this is great! you will be able to find something you enjoy!!

Jessica said...

Oh no! Glad to hear you have such a positive attitude! I hope you can find something that you will enjoy better!

Camille said...

I hope you have better luck with the job hunt that I have :) You are stellar, so I'm sure it will not be a problem!

Jill said...

This is good news really, and I'm excited for your new possibilities. What if that job had turned long term and you'd ended up feeling trapped? I think you said it well when you said you felt "released". Good luck!!

michelle said...

Well, that was sudden. I wouldn't love the surprise nature of it, but I love your attitude, and I think you are being released to do something better!

Hannah said...

Hope the job search goes well (and fast)!

Susan@besusan.com said...

I think it's grand! (Of course, that's easy for me to say...) but I just can't imagine your writing talents not being used! I'm sure there is something around the corner for you. While I don't envy the task of job hunting, I find myself daily realizing so many things that I could do so well for another company other than my own!! I think there even may be some demand for me! With all my "Ben issues" I may be in the same boat soon....

Good luck. I'll pray for you, and tomorrow is Fast Sunday, a great start! I have a feeling there's something great out there. Goodbye Fed=ex pickups!!

jt said...

Good thing you snagged some free shoes first.
Again, that was abrupt, and that would bother me either way, I think. I don't deal well with changes in my routine. I think this is great for you and I'm looking forward to see what you find. Just think, now you can leave this job with no guilt- you did your best, you were prepared to stay, but they released YOU, so you're a free agent.

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