back in Provo

On Thursday, Mom, Dad, Emily, and I all made the trek out to Provo for yet another school year. We drove the truck and the beaten up Toyota (the latter of which has no A/C) and it was kind of a long drive out there . . . .

Dad putting air into the tires before we left.

My breakfast: leftover birthday cake.

Mom filling up the truck in Grand Junction.

All of the stuff at my feet--it was a very full car.

The disgusting Provo traffic that greeted us when we arrived nine hours later.

It was such a fun weekend, and I'm way excited about my new apartment and my new roommates; however, last night was not fun and was way way sad. What's different for me this year is that things aren't that different for just me, if that makes any sense. . . . I'm just going into another school year at BYU: I've said goodbye to my family before, I've lived on my own before, I know what I'm doing. I'm experiencing the least amount of change out of everyone in my family. What was so hard for me was knowing how scared and sad Emily is and how sad and lonely Mom feels, knowing that there's only so much I can do.

Last night was hard for me because I knew the significant change the rest of my family was experience, while I was basically doing the same thing I've been doing for the past two years.

It was hard. It is hard.

It's just so different feeling like nothing is really too different for me this year. That's the only way I can think of to explain it, even though it doesn't make much sense. Mom's and Emily's blogs show a better sense of what they're feeling--everyone is scared and sad because of different things, different unknowns. The only thing I can think of to do is just press forward, knowing there's a plan.

Here's to another school year, the same and different all at the same time.


michelle said...

Oh, man. Driving that drive without A/C would not be fun!

Leftover birthday cake is the best breakfast in the world.

I am sad for you guys as well. I get what you're saying -- it's kind of same old for you, but a new chapter for your family. That is sad.

Diana said...

I hope Emily adjusts alright. She's so lucky to have you in Provo. Thanksgiving or another reason to go home will come before she knows it.
You're always welcome at my house for some down time :)

Diana said...

PS Robin and I want to have a movie night with you and Emily.

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