reliving some highlights

We flew back from Colorado yesterday, a journey which included running up and down the security terminal searching for a lost shoe and a mid-flight toddler temper tantrum. Our return to real life hasn't been much smoother--think thrashing fit in the Costco cart for the entire shopping trip. Goodness.

So I think right now I'd rather relive some of last week's highlights, as the end of December is not proving to be a positive harbinger for the January gloom.

:: Asher and Moosey the dog became fast friends, thanks in large part to Asher feeding Moose every chance he got. He quickly learned to scan the room to ensure secrecy before handing those crackers over to the dog.

:: Asher loves clementines. He ate at least five daily.

:: On Christmas Eve we all sang Christmas carols, and I loved it. Everyone was singing in parts, and it was easily my favorite moment of the evening. (Meanwhile, the baby Jesus was taken to a safe house while the rest of the manger scene sustained several casualties.)

:: We got to see and talk to John in Brazil. Best Christmas gift ever. Obviously.

:: Asher's flannel robe ended up having this samurai look to it, and it makes me giggle every time.

:: We played plenty of rounds of Bang! and the renegade even won a time or two. No matter what my role ends up being in this game, I always secretly root for the renegade.

:: Mom and I started watching Call the Midwife, per the recommendations of a few different friends. It was a little raw at first, but now we're both hooked.

:: My Christmas outfit made a second debut (the first being the Sunday before we left town)--silver houndstooth pencil skirt with pale mint silk charmuese blouse, both garments handmade. The shoes were the inspiration for it all, as well they should be.

:: Asher perfected his horse sound. And his camel sound. (A camel says pt!, in case you were wondering. Just ask the boy.)

:: When left to fiddle on the piano, Asher intuitively knows not only to turn the music pages but also to applaud himself.

Currently I'm having a bad time of the last-week-at-this-time game, and I'm pretty blue about it. I'm dealing with the melancholy by watching more Call the Midwife, reading through some new sewing books, and drinking lots of cocoa. I think I need to commission a private bullet train from Portland to Denver, and then this wouldn't even be a problem. Excuse me while I charm my engineer of a husband to take on this task. . . .

woes of Christmas packing

Think I can pull off packing two pairs of boots?

{via}

That was a real text message I sent my mom and sister. Such are the hardships of Christmas packing. Winter clothing is bulky and puffy, as opposed to the light, flowy pieces of summer. And then there are all the presents. I sent many of our presents via Amazon, but I still have gifts to transport, and all of this is just making me glad that Southwest gives you two free bags per ticket, so that's four bags for this family.

And then there are the carry-ons to consider. We have the diaper bag that I plan to pack full of diapers, extra clothes, snacks, books, toys, and Benadryl. But should I bring another one with my own flight survival tools? So. Here we are, 10:00 at night, unshowered, and blogging instead of packing. Maybe it's time for some cocoa. Obviously. 

a gracious holiday

Ever since my 31 Days of Gracious Living I haven't been able to shake graciousness from my mind. I think about gracious living often and pray for a gracious heart. Then on Monday we watched It's a Wonderful Life, and I was reminded of how gracious this season can really be.

{You can buy your own copy of It's a Wonderful Life here --it's a film worth owning}

Think of George Bailey. See how many lives his one life affected? See how his inadvertent graciousness blessed his life and the life of everyone he knew? See the effect of a gracious life, even when it's lived unintentionally? George never wanted to stick around Bedford Falls. He wanted to see the world and build things. But because the core of his heart was gracious, he stayed in Bedford Falls and built a beautiful life.

Then there's Mary, George's wife. One of the most touching parts of this story is when George leaves his house after blowing up at his family. George is scared and confused about the missing money, and he feels very alone. Mary was initially defensive and upset with George, but as soon as she realizes the state of his heart, she encourages her children to pray and takes action to find George the help he needs.

I wish we could watch what happened when Mary left the house to rally the town. What did her pleas sound like? What was her response when she saw how willing and eager the neighbors were to help George? What was Mary's journey that night? I wish I knew. What I do know after watching that film is that a gracious life is never wasted, a gracious heart is always needed. Christmas is a holiday primed for gracious living, and I hope we can all take a moment to soften our hearts and our calendars and make room for gracious living.

for when I need a Pensieve

If you don't know what a Pensieve is then you need to read Harry Potter right now. But really, bookmark this post and get on Amazon. Right now. And then you'll have thorough knowledge of the Pensieve.

So, you're back from reading all of Harry? Great. So by now you know that the Pensieve is that nifty tool of Dumbledore's that he uses to guide and organize his thoughts. As Dumbledore himself puts it, "One simply siphons the excess thoughts from one's mind, pours them into the basin [Pensieve], and examines them at one's leisure. It becomes easier to spot patterns and links, you understand, when they are in this form."

If I had a Pensieve hanging around my bedroom, I would take a moment and extract all my half-collected thoughts about what I still need to do for Christmas: what I still need to buy, to make, and to send. I think it would be so much easier to make decisions about what projects to abandon and which to stick to if I could gaze at them all in the Pensieve.

Then I would tackle everything related to our Christmas trip. Last night I spent a solid hour making to-do lists and packing lists and figuring out the calendar this week. Then Josh surprised me by taking Friday off as well, so now I'll have a minion husband to help me with cleaning and toddler duty. Every time I travel now, I'm overwhelmed by all that I have to remember to bring for the boy. It's insane. Pensieve, where are you when I need you?

Then I'd siphon off all my 2014 resolutions so I could examine them when my world calms down a little. I think I'll actually have a list of goals this year, and I can't remember the last time I approached a new year that way.

If I had time after all that rigmarole of Pensieve-ing, I'd revisit some old Christmas memories, remembrances of what it was like to believe in Santa, that year we announced we were pregnant, the year we spent in Canada, the year we were snowed in, the last year with my Grandma. That would be nice.

So. Clearly I need a Pensieve stat. And whoever gets on that, can you figure out apparition too? That would be great.

feverish revisions. so.

Yesterday was the advent day I was most excited for: "Rock around the Christmas tree." That's what we were supposed to do. We'd put on Amy Grant's version and dance around our tree and then pull up She & Him's cover and dance some more. That was the plan, and I was so excited. Then Asher woke up in the middle of the night with a fever that was pushing 103.

So. We changed our day's plans to include stretchy pants, Curious George, and alternating rounds of Tylenol and Motrin. I thought that this morning the fever was gone, but right before we packed up to go to a play date, it spiked past 102.

So. We're staying in stretchy pants, and I may have forced Asher to part from George briefly so I could catch up on The Sing-Off. We're sticking with the Tylenol/Motrin regimen and adding some brownie batter in there for good measure. I have some final touches to put on my Christmas ensemble, and unless the fever persists to Sunday, I'll be posting some pictures. And maybe those damn molars of the boy's which are likely causing this feverish week will finally finally break through.

So. This week hasn't gone as planned. But that's okay. Because while we didn't rock around the tree, we did snuggle. And that's always great, even when it's not in the advent calendar.

that night he met Santa

We met up for dinner with Karen at Jimmy John's.

And it's a good thing Grandma's good at sharing.

Because he ate at least half of her sandwich.

Then we found Santa's house by the Christmas tree.

And we waited in the cold.

Santa was not met with great enthusiasm. But we expected that. Obviously. #parentaltorture

Then we warmed up in J Crew while we checked off some Christmas shopping.

The franken-baby walked like a drunkard all around the store and wrapped those salesgirls around his mittened fingers.

And even though Santa himself wasn't a hit, the night was. This boy has my heart lock, stock, and barrel. If you ask me, the boy has been oh so good this year, and I'll do absolutely everything I can to make Christmas magical for him. 

a celebration for the believers, and even for those who only want to believe

What were those days like before Christ came to the earth? What would it have been like to live then? Today we have the Bible, which gives us an account of Christ's birth, life, death, and resurrection. We can choose to believe in words already written. In one sitting we can read the prophecies of a savior and see them fulfilled. We're on the other end of this story. But what would it have been like to live in the beginning?

For centuries before Christ's birth prophets prophesied of a redeemer, God promised to send a messiah. For generations and generations the people of the world heard promises and had to hold fast to them. These people didn't have any proof that Christ would actually come, no due date to mark on the calendar, no app to count down to His arrival--they believed because that's all they had.

{Mary Kept All These Things, Howard Lyon}

For a long time I wondered about the deep spiritual significance of Christmas--I know that sounds really bad. And here's the thing: usually when we talk about the miracle of Christmas, we talk about what the Christ child went on to do after He grew out of the manger. We talk about His sacrifice, His miracles, His redemption. And to me, those pieces of core doctrine--while paramount--are more suited to Easter. Redemption is what I celebrate in the spring when I celebrate the Savior's resurrection. And I know that it's never a bad time to reflect on Christ's grace, but something in my heart always told me that something was different about Christmas. So I ask again: What makes Christmas so special? Because we celebrate the rest of Christ's life on a different holiday.

What would it have been like to finally see the new star signifying that Christ was born? What would it have been like to be the shepherds who welcomed the angel? What would it have been like to be the wise men who traveled miles upon miles to meet a babe whom they merely believed would actually be in Bethlehem? What would it have been like to have been a believer when Jesus was born into this world?

{via}

Christmas isn't necessarily about redemption itself--it's about the promise of redemption, the promise of peace. For centuries--centuries--God promised His children a Savior, and for centuries those children had to believe that it would happen. Millions and millions of men and women died without seeing that promised fulfilled. Some probably even lost faith as they waited. The miracle of Christmas is that God keeps His promises. God keeps His promises. He promised us a savior, and in His own time He sent His own Son to be born among farm animals in a stable. He sent us prophets and signs. It might have been easy for some to doubt Heavenly Father, but He followed through anyway.

Even when we fail, Heavenly Father remains steadfast. His promises are sure, even if they're a long time in coming. Christmas is faith realized, belief proved. Christmas is evidence that our believing is never in vain, not if we anchor our belief in God's promises.

Christmas is a celebration for the believers, and it's a beacon of hope for those who don't believe, but who desperately wish they could. Because it's never too late to believe--that's the message the Christ-child brought with Him. That's the message we can hold to when we don't know what else to believe. Believing is sacred, believing is living. It's never too late to believe.

advent arrival

Yesterday, we started the advent calendar. Because it's already December, you know. Can you believe it?

Every year Silhouette comes out with a limited edition advent calendar set, and they're usually more pricey than I'm willing to spend. Through this blog, however, I used a 40-percent-off coupon code and nabbed this baby for a steal. The kit included the frame, clips, and a download card with all the exclusive envelope and holiday designs.

I spent hours on this. The Silhouette machine is pretty amazing, but it doesn't let you off the hook entirely. I had to keep track of what element needed to be cut in which color and then re-cut the elements that the machine messed up. Then there was the sewing and gluing. This calendar demanded much of my time and patience, so it's a good thing I'm thrilled with the outcome because this little guy will be gracing our walls for many Christmases to come.

I filled each day with a small activity. Some of the cards coincide with our calendar and most of them are things we'd do anyway: the church Christmas party, drinking hot chocolate, watching the Mormon Christmas devotional, turning on It's a Wonderful Life. Seven of the days correspond to chapters from 

A Christ-Centered Christmas, a book that helps you and your family infuse more Christ into your Christmas calendar. I think my favorite card is "Rock around the Christmas tree." I don't remember which day I assigned that activity to, but I can't wait.

If you're interested in buying your own Silhouette machine (I love mine--Josh gave it to me for Christmas two years ago), troll these blogs for giveaways and coupon codes (this is not a sponsored post--I'm just trying to help you find deals if you're interested!):

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I think one of the things I love most about Christmas is the anticipation. I love the music, the outings, the buildup. What do you do to anticipate Christmas? Do you have an advent calendar?

Ayla's Stocking: a post to warm your heart

If you're new to this space, you might not know about Ayla. I've written about her here, here, and briefly here. Ayla is my cousin Julie's daughter, who is almost exactly the same age as Asher. In January of this year, Ayla passed away from bacterial meningitis. This sorrow has affected me and our family in sacred and profound ways. (I wrote about that here.) Her mother, Julie, is a mountain of strength and faith. I can't even begin to tell you how much I admire her.

A couple of weeks ago, Julie announced a project called Ayla's Stocking. Ayla contracted the meningitis just a day or two after Christmas, and so Julie and her family spent the rest of the holidays in the hospital and in hospice. Julie's heart is especially tender for those parents and children who have to spend what should be such a wonderful time in such a not-homey place. She wants to ease the pain of those parents who might never have a normal Christmas with their babes.

{Ayla in her Christmas outfit and Julie}

Julie is collecting small gifts for children who are spending their Christmas in the hospital. Ideas include the following:

:: infant rattles, rings, teething toys
:: gift cards for families to places like Toys R Us, Wal Mart, etc.
:: pajamas of varying sizes
:: craft kits (with enclosed supplies) or small boxes of colored pencils, crayons, markers, etc.
:: musical toys (anything that plays sounds or music, push-button toys, etc.)
:: slippers for children and adults
:: one-size-fits-all stretchy gloves
:: winter hats (in Canada they're called toques!)
:: books (mostly infant and teen)

If you have other ideas, please feel free to donate those as well! I think this is such a beautiful way to remember Ayla, and if you have room to give, please send your gifts Julie's way. She will be donating all contributions to the hospital that treated Ayla.

I will be collecting items to send, and if you're in the Portland, Oregon, area, we can arrange a time for me to pick up your donations, and I will send them to Canada at the beginning of December. If you aren't around Portland and would still like to contribute to Ayla's Stocking, you can email me for Julie's address. (You can write me at charlottejane17{at}gmail{dot}com. You can find Julie's blog here.)

Ayla's life was short, but profound. I know that I will be forever influenced by her brief time here on earth. I am oh so grateful for the Plan of Happiness, which allows us to be with our families forever--Julie will be with her daughter again someday. Remembering the gift of our Savior--the gift of eternal families--is the best way to celebrate this upcoming season. Nothing is more wonderful.

a Wilson Christmas

You'll feel like you're there. Promise.

{explanation: flying a remote control helicopter}

You felt like you were a Wilson there for a moment, didn't you?

Hope your Christmas was just as wonderful as ours!

Christmas morning

I got to wake up to this on Christmas morning.

And it was the best.

Also, Mr. Wilson scored another slam dunk this Christmas and is buying me a serger that I get to pick out. I know. I must have been extra good this year.

Obviously.

the importance of believing

I've had 25 Christmas Eve nights, but one in particular stands out to me. I remember sitting in my grandparents' living room opening our pajamas after our Christmas Eve program. All of my family was around and in the midst of Christmas excitement and conversation, I heard soft jingle bells. I called out, "Mom, did you hear that! That's Santa!" I believed that Santa and his reindeer had just flown over our house, and I believed it with all my heart.

Believing is harder now than it was all those years ago. Growing up is hard on believing, isn't it? All of us have dealt with broken hearts and unrealized dreams, with disappointment and grieving. Some days believing is just too hard. Sometimes the heart can't handle it. 

But what would happen if we all stopped believing? What would happen to our hearts? What would happen to goodness and innocence, magic and love? What would happen to our dear children?

So readers, with a heart heavy with our nation's recent tragedy and loss, I declare my belief. This Christmas, let's believe in Santa Claus again, believe in the magic of innocence. Let us strain our ears this Christmas season for the soft sound of jingle bells, for sometimes the good is hard to find, but find it we must. If we seek goodness and the light of our dear Savior, we will find it. We must keep believing.

Remember the Wise Men, who sought the Christ child, the shepherds who hearkened to an angel's call. Let our belief emulate theirs, let us believe in the saving and tender power of the Babe who would one day give His life for all of ours, for all of theirs.

I love Thee, Lord Jesus,

I ask Thee to stay

Close by me forever and

love me, I pray.

Bless all the dear children

in Thy tender care,

and fit us for heaven

to live with Thee there.

{Away in a Manger, verse 3}

In the middle of this national grieving, don't forget or diminish the importance of believing. Listen for jingle bells and seek good. Our belief will prevail--through tears and heartache--and will lead us to the Light we so desperately seek.

the monday I became instafamous

This week has started off with misplacing my keys, consequently missing my ideal shopping window, and hearing some heartbreaking news.

My morning was softened just a little bit by seeing my Christmas tree posted on Nat the Fat Rat's blog. (Just keep scrolling through the post, and you'll spot my perfectly artificial tree.) So pretty much I'm famous now. Or at least #instafamous. For a morning. And just maybe that fleeting spotlight will make my afternoon a little bit better than it might have been.

frosted window panes, Christmas tree rockin', roasted chestnuts and other merriments

When do you start listening to Christmas music? I pull up my Christmas playlists sometime around Thanksgiving, maybe a little earlier depending on what I'm baking in the kitchen. If you haven't listened to any holiday tunes yet, then get with it and put on some Amy Grant. Or the Carpenters (Josh's holiday music staple). Or Vince Guaraldi.

Josh tried to tell me last week that it was too early to listen to Christmas music. I just laughed and turned up the volume. Listening to Christmas music is more like a month-long event. I've been enjoying my usual favorites like the albums from Hilary Weeks, David Archuleta, and James Taylor; and this year I'm also quite smitten with Jenny Oaks Baker's newest Christmas album and A Very She & Him Christmas. And my Christmas-ing is not complete without listening to Amy Grant's Home for Christmas, especially that jaunty ukulele rendition of "Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree." When I listen to that song, I may or may not actually dance around my Christmas tree.

Speaking of trees, on which side of the Christmas tree lot do you plant? The side right next to Target, or the one at the edge of the wilderness? I'm a fake tree gal all the way, which here in Oregon is arboreal blasphemy. My four-foot fake tree is low maintenance, is always the shape I like it, and comes with the lights already entwining the branches. It's an obvious choice for me. But I hear that some of you like picking out a tree, like the smell, the tradition, etcetra, etcetra. I'll keep mine of the artificial variety, thank you very much.

Favorite Christmas movies? I can't go a holiday season without cozying up to It's a Wonderful Life and crying my eyes out. And I think I'll convince Josh to watch A Muppet Christmas Carol with me this weekend. Plus you can find me with a cup of cocoa in hand at least once throughout the day. In fact, I think I'll go make a cup now.

Your holiday favorites and must-haves? Please share.